Sunday, December 21, 2008
today is not my day , definitely! had a real big fight with my parent . i don't know why , when nothing happened , they always assume something happen . i hated it ! They said i changed , im still the same april . cant they feel it . Is i don't feel any love & concern from them , they only know how to shower love on my elder bro , little bro . where does i stand in their heart honestly ? can someone tell me . maybe there's not even a place. To think that i always thought of them , this coming Christmas , i planned to give them a gift , but i think that there not need to give them . they don't give a damn . & i don't like it when they tell tales to them when i did nothing or nothing had happen. They went out today , i didn't go along . know why i didnt go , i went to shopped for my dad gifts , they don't know any of this & they start to spout nonsense , what the hell . why does i still care for them when they think that way , i really had enough . enough is enough! they said i changed when i never , fine! I'll change , i will not care about anything from now on & i meant it. whatever occasion , i wont celebrated with you all , you live your life & I live my life . i wished im better off dead , so that i wont face this kind of problem every now & then.
those joy we had ;
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